Cut Loose

Before I dive into the difficulties of international adoption (as promised), I thought I'd start off by describing as least one of the joys. FYI, they do out-number the difficulties.
One of the most amazing experiences (as least for me--every journey is different) I am actually finding very hard putting into words.

Cut-loose. Freed.

There's a part of me that's always been very driven toward materialism/consumerism/what-do people-think-about-me-ism. It's not that I've cared so much about keeping up with The Jones--again, finding it hard to put what was into words. I've just always liked stuff and it's cheap thrills.

But through our adoption and our trip to Ethiopia (and even prior mission trips) this shallowness has gradually been replaced with more a enduring and meaningful pursuit.

I guess another way to describe it is like a leaving-and-cleaving from secular culture...in the world, but no longer of the world. Guess it's what Scripture calls "death to self". And this experience hasn't been painful at all! It's been liberating!! My thoughts and desires have been liberated...no longer concerned...consumed...with the American Dream (whatever that is). God is giving my existence more and more fully to His work. Decisions that once were difficult are now becoming no-brainers. Living is just becoming more simple--not always easier--just more simple. I don't have as many options suffocating me.

Oh, I hope I am making a grain of sense. Yes, bringing Micah home has been an experience beyond words, but he has been the floor of my experience...the ceiling is still out of sight! Everyday, my moments with Micah God uses to redeem and refocus my thoughts, desires, pursuits...it's all been just the beginning of a much bigger picture!!

But, as it is written,
“What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him”––
these things God has revealed to us through the Spirit.
For the Spirit searches everything, even the depths of God.
For who knows a person’s thoughts except the spirit of that person, which is in him? So also no one comprehends the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.
Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God.
And we impart this in words not taught by human wisdom but taught by the Spirit, interpreting spiritual truths to those who are spiritual.
The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them
because they are spiritually discerned.
The spiritual person judges all things, but is himself to be judged by no one.
“For who has understood the mind of the Lord so as to instruct him?”
But we have the mind of Christ.
2 Cor 2: 9-13


Erin McCoy said...

:) I love your heart! i've felt convicted of this lately --- i felt like i have so many clothes, fridge is always stuffed, not living above our means but definitely living our means and i don't think we're called to do that...... did a big wardrobe reduction and made a convenant not to buy any clothes and havent since january (excluding some gift cards ;) ) it's been sooo freeing to know that i am not buying out of want and instead can use the money we've been blessed with for god's purpose... Of course, only done well with clothes so far -- but praying that this continues to spread to all parts of my life ;)

Apryl said...

It's a good place to be, but easy to slip back into secular materialism. I feel an ebb and flow in my own life. I wish it wasn't that way. Totally get what you are saying--you made perfect sense :)

Tracy said...

totally agree!----- and isn't it so hard to articulate to those who haven't adopted? but, you said it so well!! :))

Ruthie said...

Alisa! If you haven't yet, consider reading "Freedom of Simplicity" by Richard Foster. It uses a Christian perspective to address many of the issues you raise here. We did a study of this book in our Sunday School class when we first considered adoption. It started me on a similar journey away from materialism, etc. I still struggle with my want for things (*sigh* sometimes I give in) but at least I feel like I have a Christ-centered way to respond to those wants. It IS liberating! Thanks for raising this important issue!

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