8.09.2010

sometimes...

...I want to be one of those families.
You know, that family who's adoption paperwork always arrives earlier than expected. That family who finds a mystery check in the mail. Or a pile of cash on their doorstep.

I could go on and on...

I don't always think about being one of those families. Just sometimes.

We sent our letter of intent (requesting to move ahead with Judah's adoption) on July 28th. The estimated time-frame to receive China's response is 2-4 weeks. And we've been waiting 12 days. Prideful 'ol-arrogant-me just knew we'd hear something sooner. I don't know why I do this to myself! Why can't I just mind the typical time-frames, and chill??!!

Well, I know why -- because I stalk the date logs of hundreds of families on chat groups and blogs. And, some families (those families) have received their pre-approval in less than 2 weeks.

Guess it's not really that big of a deal. All the paper work will fall into place in God's perfect timing, according to His perfect plan. I trust that, and I really am at peace with that most-comforting truth! Maybe the legalistic side of me (which is obvioulsy dying a slow-death) thinks that being one of those families would suggest we've earned an extra-measure of God's favor. Kind of like my drooling-Basset Hound, who always demands extra attention when I don't have time. Or that pesky co-worker (back in my medical technologist-days), who always needed affirmation and approval when I wasn't in the mood.

But, God isn't like that.

He doesn't tease me with the notion that I could experience His love.
He never withholds it, and I don't have to earn it.
He simply loves me.
And He loves me completely, and fully.

So whether our pre-approval arrives on day 13, or day 33, I can trust the out-come to be perfect. And we may never be one of those families...but, we're His family. And for that we can celebrate on day 12, day 13, and day 33!

For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
the LORD bestows favor and honor.
No good thing does he withhold
from those who walk uprightly.

Ps 84:11

5 comments:

Kary said...

Praying for you Alisa. I understand:) I think one of the hardest things about being an adoptive mom is that nothing is on our time frame (9 months) so we are always at God's mercy and timing...the end result is always worth it but going through the roller coaster of unknowns is hard.

Alison said...

I so hear you!! I was hoping to be one of "those" families that got their FBI reports back in one week...still waiting at 7 1/2 weeks. Just trying to rest in God's timing!! Praying that you get that pre-approval back soon!

Greg and Laura said...

The waiting is so hard, I know...but it will come and before you know it you will be sending baby Judah a care package and hopefully getting some update pics!! Hang in there, it'll be here any day I just know it!
Praying for all you!

Heather said...

I so understand - It is just plain hard as we wait for our children. I updated the list with your LOI :) (I update the AWAA list) and wanted to say congratulations! Praying the wait for LOA and TA goes quickly and that God gives you exactly what you need at each moment to trust in HIS timing.

La Dolce Vita: The Sweet Life said...

I so understand as well. We are definately not one of "those" families either. We are finally (after 4 years) travelling to our daughter in China. Nothing came fast, or even on time for us. In the past few months, we have seen so many families get referrals and travel withing two months. Not us!

BUT, we trust GOD. We trust that He is at work on our hearts, and in our family.

Blessings to you! Not sure how I found your blog, but am following aong! We are China/Ethiopia as well!

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